Last few moments of my phone conversation with my love tonight:
JC: You better tell me you love me Woman!
Me: Love you (sarcastically)!
JC: You better say it like you mean it.
Me: I love you (kind of sarcastically).
JC: I love you Woman!
Me: Love you too Butthead!
*Cracking up as we both hung up!
**So the epitome of our relationship!
K: Mama, I bet you can’t guess who is the worst villain ever.
Me: How bad is this villain? And is it a boy or a girl?
K: He’s a boy and he’s VERY bad!!!
Me: Is it the devil?
K: What the heck?! Who’s the devil? I was talking about Braniac. Geesh Mama, do you know anything???
*Clearly not Son!!!
Scenario: Getting out of the bath on a random Monday
K: Mama, how much do you love me?
Me: You are the most important thing in life to me.
K: So you love me more than anyone?
Me: I love lots of people so very much. But I love you so so so much and a lot more than some people! Like this much (with my arms open wide to the side, then vertically, then wrapped around myself in a big hug)!!!
K: But do you love me more than Nana?
K: More than Grandpa?
K: More than Mr. JC?
K: You know Mama, he told me that he loves me more than he loves you, so…
Me: Is that right? Well, we can ask him when he calls tonight.
K: No, just trust me. That’s what he said!
Me: Hmmmm!!! I don’t know about that!!!
K: It’s true. Seriously! Now, come here you! Gimme some sugar!!!
This weekend, James and I had a huge setback. We have been waiting on some news that basically determines our future and the verdict was like a blow to the chest—the wind was literally knocked out of us. We had waited 10 months for this information and had really thought that the timing was in our favor; we both truly didn’t have a shred of doubt that we would come out on top—life threw us a curve ball! Now, I am sure you are thinking that this is cryptic, but that’s basically because I don’t put all of my business out there, but trust me—this sucked! And it sucked big time. Tears flowed. Concerns rose up. Fears tried to creep in. It shook me to the core. It irritated me beyond belief. It scared the heck outta me.
After the tears stopped and I got outta my head with all kinds of scary and frustrating and intimidating scenarios, my type A personality kicked in, and I was able to assess the situation with a semi-clear head. Many times, a set back is just a set up for a comeback. I really had to rest on and rely in the comfort I received from friends and family. I really had to seek God and pray to get a peace about what to do next. I really have to trust James and what he has promised me. And James really has to trust me and what I have promised him. We had plans for 2014 and they didn’t include these shenanigans.
So… what if we have to wait another year to be married? No biggie! We get to spend forever together, so why not take this time to really dig into deeper issues and get to know one another better. So what if we have to wait another year live in the same area code? That’s ok. We will have the rest of our lives to live happily ever after, right?!
I can’t wait to see what this year unfolds. A no now doesn’t mean a no for forever. Get ready for the comeback—cause I can assure you, this was one hell of a set back!